Sugarland - Settlin'
This song has become the theme song to my life, I think.
I was talking to a friend of mine a while back, he's a great great guy. But maybe physically, not everyone's dream man. And he has his hmmm.. we'll call them quirks. Anyway, we were talking about people friend's have talked about us possibly dating. He once had a friend try to set him up with another friend's socially delayed sister. I once upon a time had someone try to set me up with his friend who suffered from major ADHD. I'm not saying there's anything wrong with being socially delayed, or having ADHD, but why should I settle for dating someone's slightly handicapped friend? I know how this might come across, and I apologize if that's how you interpret it, as I assure you that's not how I mean it.. From where we stood, it came across as insulting. That's the point I'm trying to make here. I'm sorry better words escape me when I'm ridiculously exhausted.
What I mean is, just because I'm a fatty, and haven't had much luck in the dating department, why should I settle for someone who is so far from my idea of the perfect mate? When it comes down to it, I'd rather be alone then know I'm settling on someone just for the sake of being with someone. You know?
Just because society views me as a lesser human being, doesn't mean I should date someone else society views as a lesser human being. Why shouldn't I be 100% physically attracted to the man I'm with? Why shouldn't he be on my level intellectually, maybe a little higher, even? Why shouldn't I be with someone who is emotionally, mentally, psychologically stable? Why should I have to settle for anything less then everything I want?
Maybe I'm being a little selfish. But this is the rest of MY life I'm talking about. So I'm going to be selfish. I'm not going to settle on meh, I'm going to strive for everything.
Also, to update, Mr. Calls me beautiful, no mention of curves, is apparently too busy for me these days. So, that's fine. Because I want someone who has time for me. Ain't settlin'!